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Bored [December 2nd 2006|5.56pm] Bored. I am fucked out of my mind with nothing to do. Guitar, back to bass, guitar, back to bass, stop bass, get on AIM, stop chatting, back to guitar, mow lawn, eat lunch, watch movie, guitar, back to movie, commercial, grab some water, movie, call michelle, hang up, back to bass. ALL OVER AGAIN! Same ol' fuckin shite i do every god damned thing over and over as if it was a reacurring dream. Not a thing to do round margate. its a lil fuckin town with lil to do. I cannot stand this anymore. I am counting the days til i head to michelles. and then i get to do it all over again when I leave. it is sickening. Take me overseas I wanna do something. Hiking i germany, base jumping in New zealand, jam out with John Butler in perth. AHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I have felt sick to my stomach literally, with pains and urges to throw up. I am out of my head. I have listened to Bloc Party to the point I know there lives through interpretation.... Read 1 - Post Comment

Is it just me? [November 17th 2006|4.44pm] I feel like shit. I feel so depressed. I havent seen Michelle much, and I HATE not being around her. I have been crying way too much lately. Exspecially me being a guy, thats a wimp thing to do. I guess everything is actually hitting me now. I need to loosen up on a few things. I can't control people, and I guess I was trying to, not because I can, because I felt a certain way about something. Oh well. Whatever. I guess we do what we want anyways, right? Post Comment

It's gonna be a good week. [November 15th 2006|4.15pm] [ mood | happy ] Recently I have decided to lose some weight. At least 50 pounds. I have a goal of 2 or more pounds a week. I exercise every morning for an hour. Cardio everyday, and strength training every monday and wednesday. Im also dieting. So hopefully I will lose some weight. So far Ive, lost 5 pounds. One pound more then I lost yesterday, at least when I weighed in. Im excited about it. Never really was before, but every morning that I have exercised, I always feel good afterwards. I think this time Im gonna stick to it. My main goal besides 50 pounds is to go down a pants size or two. I will be SO HAPPY when that happens. Thanksgiving is coming up and my Aunt Nancy and Uncle Paul will be visiting. It should be fun. Michelle will be leaving for a cruise. She should be leaving for Ft. Lauderdale to stay with me, but no, she's going to have fun in the Bahamas or something. Meanwhile Im going to take a CPT for BCC, which starts January 8th. WOO HOO!!! Back into the school thing. Excited but not overly. Need to get a second job so I can save up some moolah for a vehicle, and so when i move out. I think things are going to turn out well for me here. Although I hate being away from Michelle, I am doing fine here. I will be going back for Christmas to see her, which I cant wait, it will be so much fun. Well, wish me luck. Love, Gregory D. ktp Post Comment

My day. Good. [November 8th 2006|10.46am] Today was my 19th year on this face of earth. It was a good one, although I had no friends to celebrate it with. Not saying I need to. But I would have loved to party or something. I wish Michelle was with me also, but I can't have everything at once. So instead, I chilled with my parents. It was good, I can't complain. Got me and Ice Cream cake from Larry's Ice Cream. Tasted fucking bliss. It was great. Listening to Ferry Corsten right now. Was listening to prodigy earlier, but felt like some trance, not so much breakbeat. I plan on heading out next week to see Michelle, and hang out with my best friends Kyle and Anthony. I miss all of them. Very much. I hate not having the feeling of Michelle falling asleep in my arms or just curling up with her. As for the boys, I miss just going out and hanging out. Chilling around, going to the hookah lounge, or even watching Weaksauce at the Majestic or Java Junction. Gonna end my night now. KTP, Gregory D. Post Comment

Reading all my past entries makes you think about things, especially when you've moved... [November 6th 2006|11.43pm] Its crazy to think I actually wrote all this. Reading over it all, and letting it hit you, its a different feeling. For anybody who reads this, I live in Ft. Lauderdale now. Margate area. So if you do read this, comment me. And Michelle, thankyou for telling me that. I love you so much babygirl. If i were ever granted one wish, it would be to stay with you for the rest of my days. Never let it cross your mind I will walk out, cause that is a mistake I would feel for the rest of my life. I love you dearly and too much to let something so precious be gone. Post Comment

I can't help it... [March 9th 2006|10.43pm] [ mood | happy ] I know I talk about you alot. I know that I'm into you more then you may be into me, and I accept that. You are something that I can't stop thinking about. Everytime I'm around you I am always happy, never a dull moment, never a time to frown upon. Ive seen you cry, Ive seen you laugh, and Ive even seen sides of you that no one else has. Thinking about you makes me smile, makes me laugh, and sometimes even tear up, but for some reason, every response that I get from our memories, or a picture of you in my mind, its always a good one. Yes, there are things that I may not always like about you, but I love that at the same time. Its something that I grow acustom to, because its who you are. Spending the time we can share together is always a time I look forward to. I love spending the nights at the causway, watching a movie at my house, lounging in the bed taking a nap together, or just talking on the phone for a few hours on end. It will never cease to me that you are a person that I will never forget the rest of my life. My best friend, my closest pal, my phone buddy, and my girlfriend. What I see in you can go for miles without a flaw. You are an absolutley amazing person and whatever obstacles may belittle along your path, you will know exactly the right move. Know that I have very strong feelings for you, and they grow with every new day. I just hope that what we have can last. Last for as long as we both allow it. I promise to you that I will tend to your every need. I promise I will be there for every call you give me. I promise that I will never walk out on you when you need me. I promise I will hold you for when you need a shoulder to cry on. I promise to live richly with our relationship as friends, and live strong with our relationship as a couple. You have given me the strength to do many things Michelle. You have changed something in me that hasnt been revealed to anyone, even myself. Your probably my better half anyways. (lol) I will endeavor every moment we share with a strong mind. I will support you in whatever you may choose. Remember that I will always be here for you Michelle. With Love, Gregory D. Garghill Read 2 - Post Comment

phhffft... [March 8th 2006|7.59pm] Today was decent. Junior/Senior Talent show during the FCAT today. I hosted, it was fun. I dont have to take any of my exams, besides Cheesemans. I leave next wednesday for Nashville Tennessee. Woop Woop... -gregory D- Post Comment

I napped [March 7th 2006|8.31pm] yes, i did. I napped til 630 or so... fuck you... Post Comment

long week, good weekend... [March 5th 2006|11.05am] Long ass week. FCAT takes up so much shit and makes it impossible for teachers and students to deal with everything thats going on, but its all good. I got my Cap and Gown, and so thats good. Friday night I went to Ybor city and fucked around. Last night I got to see Michelle, which was nice because I havent talked to her in a bit, so I had a lot of fun being with her. Today, well I get to do whatever, then I head out for the Seether, Shinedown, Flyleaf, and Halestorm concert at the USF sundome. I will be getting in like 2am so I took tomorrow off school. YES!!! later kids -gregory D- Post Comment

fuck [March 1st 2006|11.12pm] day was great, up until i got home. I call it, Walk N' Bitch. Post Comment

no school... nuckas! [February 27th 2006|8.05pm] i aint goin to school bitches!!!!!!!!! Woop fuckin woot. Kayaking and Jam sessionz with the KW. Post Comment

Good Weekend [February 26th 2006|5.04pm] [ mood | bored ] Long weekend persay. Friday was fun. I spent my night at Michelle's, we talked and whatnot. It was fun though. Saturday morning i drove to the school because we had the spongedocks performance to do. I don't think too many people really felt like going through with it but did anyways. It was a decent show. The singers could have done much better though. Oh well, now we have the Send off concert this thursday to perform. It should be fun. Saturday night was fun also. I went and hung out with KT and Joni. We went to the POWER CANAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol, fun shit. Then we pulled a junk food night again. Except i didnt eat much of it. And today, well I cleaned, talked to parents, had a beer with the parents, and thats about it. Other that that, it was all good. So now Im here. Ive been kinda bored all day, and tomorrow I have to deal with all the fuckin senior shit. I hate being stuck in one damn room for a whole day of school. Its boring and pointless for the most part. Anyways, thats what Im doing. See you kids later. -gregory D- Post Comment

To Whom... [February 23rd 2006|8.34pm] [ mood | determined ] Seated at a rest, I ponder about things that hit my mentality as important structures of information for my everyday life. That of which pertains to my present and my future. Ive thought alot about the occurances I encounter every moment my time passes through them, and Ive come up with an abundance of ideas, or theories that cross my mind. Again, this is something that I normally never do unless it actually bothers me. For the first time today, I have cried in front of somebody other than my parents. When I mean cry, I mean cry... I broke down. Ive never seen myself break down before. As a senior at TSHS, I have attended a very well placed four years of highschool, most of which I have enjoyed. I have enjoyed all of them, but there was one year that I just wish I didnt do what i had already gone through with. It bit me in the ass, but Ive made it up, so I believe Im clear. The fact im 18 years of age is grateful. I love it very much, I have many oppurtunities, than that of age 16, but recently, since the year has been withering down to a minimum, Ive come to realize alot in life. I mean alot. With myself, people too, but mostly myself. I admit that I am not even close to being ready for higschool to be over. I could go another year, maybe an extra summer, but still. My true life is determined after this next year. I have the idea of what I want to do, I have the smarts to make a good decision about what it is I want to accomplish in my life. I had one of the shittiest weeks ever. All my fault, I made it that way by letting the little things bother me. I think it was an additive of everything, pileing up on me, teetering to the left and right ready to topple over. It was bound to happen soon enough. Just the fact that Syndicated Sound seems like nobody really cares for it anymore kind of makes me feel dissapointed. I shouldnt be though because, I myself, am looking forward to seeing the results of the Nashville trip. I watch other Senior students enjoy everything, they have a plan laid out on what to do, whereas I do not. I have a basic idea. Join military. It only can help me, it wont hurt me. If I continue, then I so, but I know I wouldnt mind going to college either. Go into the USAF and enter Public Affairs, then maybe hit up college with a degree in Business. Maybe since im in the USAF, move to Hawaii, possibly Germany, or even Japan. Whatever is really fine with me, Im young and I have a lot to learn. Let it hit. Bring it on. Thats my plan. Go with the flow, let it all slide into place, but maybe at the same time... force a "few" things into my own direction. If I want it, Ill make sure I get it. I also have one of the most special people you could ever ask for, as a best friend. We are dating each other, but our relationship is more on the best friends, stick through thick and thin, kind of side. I enjoy it very much. I am kind of expecting after my leave, for us not to be together. Do I want that? No I dont. Not one bit. But I should thank this person for being my friend. My second half. My extra advice, my second pair of eyes and most of all, my friend. Continue on with life as it may, let the pieces fall into there places, let the people you meet, become friends, or even closer than that. What you expect may not even be close to what you thought would really happen, keep In mind. What exactly is it I want? I want to be alive, kicking, jumping, screaming, sharing emotions, living a dream, driving a convertable down the northern california coast, wrapping a coat around me in the winters as I step outside to the busy NYC traffic, sharing a frozen concaction with a sliver of pineapple with a pretty girl lying next to me on the Hawaiian shores just talking, nobody special, just a person who I happen to just meet. I want things to fall into place, yet with my goals to be in priority also. What exactly am I going to get? That my friend, is something that a blank page can only tell...it just only needs to be filled in by one author. I can only say so much. I can only change so much. I can only wish for the best. I can only... Only get what I strive for. It is up for me... G.D. Garghill, to find out the ending to this story. Fill in the pages my friend. Fill them in with excitement, travel, wealth, happiness, sadness, good times, bad times, love, relationships, friendships, and most of all, your own story. Give it a good title my friend. I wish you the best of luck in everything you wish for. Everything you want to accomplish. Good luck. Make yourself proud. I want you to look back as you get older, and say to yourself, in a humble, but not overly confident way, that you have definantly changed a piece of something, that you have done what you have wanted. You can do this. But as for the things you are bothered with now, well take her advice. Restate these words. "this too shall pass..." -Gregory D- Post Comment

oh yes... [February 22nd 2006|8.35pm] I bought some more paintball stuff today. I also got the interviews done. I purchased some Dye Pants, JT jersey, and JT gloves, plus i bought a thor clamping feed neck for my gun because i hate the plastic necks. too much work and they sway too much, besides this chrome one is badass and is stationary. Today's day ended very well. -gregory D- Post Comment

hells yea [February 21st 2006|4.57pm] [ mood | artistic ] Im cooking dinner tonight. I originally planned it for Mother and I, as a surprise. Well she's going out with Gina to eat dinner. That does'nt bother me, just the fact she said I dont think of her ever. Bullshit. Well I'm making Sesame and Pinenut layered Smoked Salmon rubbed down with Paprika, and a hint of oregano. Also, to accompany the wonderful Salmon, I bought oversized Mushrooms so I can stuff them with buttered lobster, onions, garlic, peppers, and top them with a shrimp, and almond, with a spritzer of virgin italian olive oil. Should be a good dinner, im gonna take pictures because it will look neat, let alone taste good. Peace out. -gregory D- Post Comment

Sweet... [February 19th 2006|7.43pm] [ mood | awake ] Well, today rocked everything. I got a call last minute this morning for the Break50 Paintball Trial that was supposed to happen a month ago. Lemme tell you. IT ROCKED!!! We played 6 hours of non-stop superball. It fucking was the best. I did very good for being a firstimer on Superball. I owned Mike Dupre by bunkering him. I also bunkered Dakota. Too much to explain though. I was supposed to take Michelle's brother with me, Sam, but he was out with his grandfather, and she didnt know what time he would be coming home, so I never got to take him with me. I did manage however to some great footage of the games. But im not finished yet, I need to g2 the Break50 store so i can do interviews. Well, thats about it for today. -gregory D- Post Comment

Twas a good day... [February 18th 2006|1.36am] [ mood | cheerful ] Today was a fairly easy school day. Same as always really. I did leave to get Taco Bell for Michelle and I for lunch, that was the highlight, I actually left. So yea. That was it. After school, I went to Michelle's, she cleaned her bedroom while I took a nap. Then we came back over to my house and just relaxed. I ordered a pizza for us, and we just watched a lil TV, and then we were so exauhsted from today that we went to sleep. Crawled in my bed and pulled the covers over, and I set the alarm for midnight. We got about 2 and a half hours of sleep. My day was really good overall though. Tomorrow shall be interesting nonetheless, since I will be helping Mr. Emerson build the flats and such. Interesting because I think we should just buy new wood, and build our own. So this shall be fun. Im going to bed now. -Gregory D- Post Comment

Fucking Pointless [February 16th 2006|9.43pm] [ mood | guilty ] School. Fucking Pointless today. 2 subs, decent ASR, TV Pro is TV Pro, although i did get a bunch of awesome credit for my Videography skills. Ms. Rush is absoutley in love with my films. So thats a +. I JUST GOT HOME from the school. I stayed after school so Michelle, Joni and I could run the tech shit, or should i say "sit there and do nothing" because cheeseman is a wittle pussy when it comes to shit like this. My SuperIntedent of Dr. Wilcox interview was cancelled. I was looking forward to it. But i still have the code two, no complaints. But ill end up going anyways. Because thats me. Im a responsible student. I made 175 in cash today from selling my guitar, thought i would get 150 from Rob, but he never showed up. So i might be able to get my iPod this weekend. Michelle is still the best person I know. She is just an amazing friend, and I dunno why, but i couldnt have a complete day unless i talk to her. Somebody wrote on my truck today in that window shit "Greg Rox My Sox", well whoever did it, thankyou, it made me smile and I apreciate it. I needed to smile today. It was kind of bland and a lil "nonetheless" depressing, my day was. My good friend Joe Kepner told me he might not be graduating because of his unmotivated, but thats that. Im out. -Gregory D- Post Comment

Weird Day, Easy, But, Weird. [February 15th 2006|7.13pm] [ mood | blank ] Well, I happened to get "alot" done today. Haha! Well i did get some stuff done. I filmed a video today, editited it all together, and i will admit, for the short amount of time we had, it turned out really badass. Today was fairly easy. 1st period I anchor so all i do is read a screen. I typed up scripts and did a few other technical things also, but for the most part it was simple. 2nd period, i watched a movie called Wanna Dance? but i didnt pay too much attention to it because i was so into this book I'm reading. "Skull Session" by Daniel Hecht. Its defiantly a page turner. Its got some good twists to it also. Im thinking of taking a section of the book ive read recently, and re-create it on film. Its really that interesting. 3rd period was rush's class once again, i made that video. Very easy. Thats about it. 4th was fucking stupid because alot of the kids were absent, cheeseman was pissed, i wasnt having a challenging day, and for some reason, im worried about michelle. Not worried, but im concerned. Something is on her mind, and she has told me its all for her to worry about. Its not about me and her, or just me. Its just her. But shes acted differently, and I respect her so much. I understand when you need your space to think, you need your space. But I cant stand seeing her bummed out and down, and thats how she seems. I care for her alot. And it sickens me sometimes to see her like that, because I want her to be as happy as she can be. Whatever it takes. And yes, nobody is going to be happy 110% of the time, i do understand that, but when she smiles, it makes me smile. I cant help but smile. So thats whats been goin on there. I'm selling my footpedal, guitar, and amplifier to David Fishman, and Robert. So i should be making abou $325 tomorrow. I might use that money to buy an iPod, because i want one. I dunno if i want to order if offline, or if i should buy one from like best buy or something. I just know i want a black one. Because its nice looking, and easier to keep clean. Im still wanting to start a band, but it looks like nobody wants too. Im still pissed off that Uncommon Ground, my previous band went ahead and kicked me out with out telling me at all. Thats dick. We were good also. But, then again, they all smoked helluva lot of pot, and i did to an extent, but it was too much. It ruined our image. So i guess its all good. Things happen because they do, for reason i believe. Just like a smile. :) So smile. Because you have a reason to. Nothin else has crossed my mind to talk about because i guess thats all i did. Nothing super special. I want to g2 the causway this weekend with Michelle, we havent done that in awhile, but if its cold, fuck that. Although it is supposed to get warmer as the week progresses. So, yea...thats about it. Leave a comment or something. Its nice to get them once in awhile. -Gregory D- Post Comment

another one [February 11th 2006|11.25pm] **~Long Survey~** (w/ good grammar and decent, unique questions) The Basics and Some Personals Name:: Greg Age:: 18 Shoe Size:: 14 Height:: 6'2 Weight:: 287 Pants Size:: 42 Shirt Size:: xl, xxl, it all depends. Innie or Outie?: Innie bitch. I dont have a stomach nipple. Love Questions Are you in Love?: No Are you single or taken?: Taken If single, for how long?: n/a If taken, for how long?: since october 14th, about 5 months. If taken, by whom?: Michelle Emerson. Somebody I whose had made an impact on me, and for which I will never forget her for it. Do you like guys or girls?: Girls What do you think about Sporty guys?: there sporty? Dumb question Smart?: Yes smart is good. Dorky?: yes dorky is cute. Popular?: it doesnt matter. Your Favorites Kind of Food:: Chicken Courdon Bleu, pizza, and pastas. Color:: green Song:: Too many. Band:: Muse, 10 years, and John Butler Trio Singer:: I dunno. CD:: haha, too many. Kind of Music:: Hardrock, Alternative Rock, and Trance Animal:: Dog, Michelles Cat Max. Only him. Place to be?: Causway at Night. Islands, and in bed. Vacation spot:: hmm... N. California, Seatlle Washington. Hawaii, Osaka, UAE, certain floridian locations. Actor:: Zach Braff (favorite director also) Actress:: Underated Natilie Portman, and Kirstie Alley. Comedian:: Zach Gilifakis, Brain Reagan, Dane Cook. Soap Opera:: haha, dont watch them. Day Time Talk Show:: Montel is good. Game Show:: dunno. Jepordy or somethin. All Around Favorite Show:: King Of Queens. Drink:: MD, Dr. Pepper, water Restaurant:: Tokyo JP. Buddy Freddy's or Barnhills. Number:: 7 and 8 Letter:: G Word:: Funny Your Short Opinion on.. George W. Bush:: he's doin decent, but i still dont like him. Gay Marriage:: I say yes for it. just b/c "god" says its bad doesnt mean anything. Whats gay marriage gonna do? Nuke the world? haha, if you dont agree, i think your hidng something. Rocketing Gas Prices:: Disagree, but hey, things happen for a reaosn. Minimum Wage ($6.75):: Doesnt really matter. Anytime the Minimum wage increases, so does everything else. Drunk Driving:: Stupid, i did it too many times and i lived through it. dont ever do it. the worst decsion you could ever make. Legal Driving Age:: 16 Anorexia:: Should be payed attention too. Help the people. Mary-Kate and Anorexia:: lol. you mean cocaine problems? Lindsay Lohan (18) and her 23-year-old boyfriend:: Lohan has some massive boobies, let her do what she wants. Young Marriages:: There decision. Ii believe you should wait, live with person first. Young Parents:: People are people, no matter what age. Young enough to have fun, but adult enough to have responsable parenting Pregnency without a Marriage:: If your getting married, its cool. If you dont want to get married, but still want to live with each other, thats cool. Other then that, you should be married. Telemarketers:: Just another job for the people who need one. Annoying...yes, but hey, everybody needs money. Pop Quizzes:: cool This Survey:: decent, ive seen better Label Your Friends! Loudest:: Frankie Quietest:: KT Nicest:: Joni Person who doesn't think before they speak:: Drew Nimmo Outspoken:: Michelle Annoying:: Erin Popular or has best chance of becoming popular:: Taylor Best Dressed:: i dunno Worst Dressed:: i dunno Sweetest:: Michelle Giving:: Michelle Selfish:: i dunno Ungrateful:: lol, not sure. Social Butterfly:: Alex Losee Will be crowned Most Likely to Succeed by their class:: hahaha, nobody... This or That Soda/Punch: soda Sour/Sweet: sweet Summer/Winter: winter Christmas/Thanksgiving: xmas Easy/Challenging: challenging Light/Dark: dark Sun/Moon: moon TV/Movies: Movies Out with Friends/Out with Family: friends Cat/Dog: Dog Penguin/Dolphin: Dolphin Book/Magazine: a good book, just any Last Questions about the Survey Did you like the survey?: alright Would you reccomend it to a friend?: maybe Where will you put your results?: LJ Thanks for coming...: no problem. Take this survey | Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d Post Comment

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